monday morning

I am unsure if what happened in my brain last night is okay or not... I get upset when you dont respond or when texts arent as cute as they used to be... what is wrong with me? I am falling apart at the seams or am I just expecting too much?

I wonder if I will ever be able to just let go and be happy again without my past creeping up to scare me... I hate what happened in my past and I feel like trying to fix it will only make it worse... I feel like I am sinking again and I dont know how to stop...

someone please rescue me quickly... I dont know how much longer I can hold on before I let go...

unsure

I dont know why I keep feeling like this... this pit at the bottom of my stomach just waiting for something bad to happen to take everything that I have that is happy and make it miserable again.... to send me deep into the abyss of my inner self... that place that I am so scared to go back to... that place that both of you sent me to.

I dont know why I cant let go, why the past keeps creeping up on me again and again... why cant I just be happy with what I have and not dwell on what I dont have or what I lost...

Can I ever be repaired or will I always be this damaged... will you be the one to put my broken pieces back together...