another day gone...

I stay up late at night not to have time to think
But to become so exhausted and numb that thinking becomes impossible
All the thoughts I am afraid to think drift away in the exhaustion
I become completely numb and void
A shell of my former self
Able to forget about everything and just bleed a little more slowly

No thoughts of what had happened between us
No thoughts of what I lost
No remembrance of what we did or the joy that I felt
All emotion drained away for numbness to take it's place

Numb to seeing your face again or seeing those deep brown eyes
Numb to every touch you give me
Numb to every thought I have ever known

The night fades to dawn and as the sun rises higher into the sky
I look towards the horizon and let go of myself and I
Give up everything you loved about me
Everything that made you smile
Destroy the you that you loved
Destroy the girl I used to be

No more will she dawn the horizon of days to come
That girl is gone forever
You drove her away for good

The girl with the deep blue eyes
And the warm glowing smile that lights her face
Who loves life and just wants to be happy again
Where did she go and when will she return
No one knows and does anyone even care...

I stay up late at night letting myself go
Letting the emotions drain out of me and numbness take their place
Because maybe if I let myself slip far enough away the pain will slip away with it
And maybe just maybe then you will realize the mistake that you made...